Can you hear the Jeopardy music playing?

I wish I had some big, exciting update to put on here but I don’t. I am trying to be patient. Those who know me know that is not one of my strong suits though. I sent the last of my documents to go in my file. Now there is nothing more I can do then sit here twiddling my thumbs while I wait for news of my acceptance (or rejection). I sent an email to the assistant director last night. I was trying to think of a way of asking her when I will get my answer without coming across as overly anxious or pushy. I let her know that although I am excited to start the journey I do understand that they have a lot to take into consideration when choosing a surrogate. I said I am will to take all the time that is necessary and that I was simply asking out of curiosity. Okay, so that is only half true. ;-)

I continue to stalk some of the blogs I found on surrogacy. Some are just starting out on their journey. A couple of them have already delivered their babies and are talking about life after the birth. I really appreciate the insight they have given me into the surrogacy process. Hopefully I will be able to do the same for someone else one day.

I have also been reading a couple of blogs from the intended mother’s (IM) perspective. Those are hard to read. Several times I’ve had to walk away because I was in tears. I thought I had an idea of what these women go through but I am finding I was only scratching the surface. Their stories are heartbreaking. While this reaffirms why I want to become a surrogate I decided I need to take a breather from reading these particular blogs. I hope that doesn’t make me weak. It’s not that I felt like I couldn’t continue to read them because it was too much emotionally, but more because I had to stop myself from emailing one of them to offer myself as their surrogate. I’m sure they will find a terrific woman to give them a baby someday. I pray they find someone soon. I do need to be careful about how I go about this though. There is so much more than telling someone I will carry their baby and having them agree. There are legal issues involved. I don’t think that is something I can handle on my own. That’s where the agency comes into play. They will look out for the best interest of both parties.

Back to being patient…….or NOT! ;-) I will update when I hear something. Until then keep your fingers crossed for me!